i like to blog...

So glad i'm blogging. Just read my last post - it's great to get some perspective by looking back on stuff that I've thought about before. God is working in and around me even if I'm not quite up to speed right now.

I'm tired this evening. Got back from the Together at East of England conference earlier and took myself straight up to bed to pull together my weekend's essay editing (have finished and just emailed it off!) in the warm. I'm feeling mostly sleepy and grumpy at the moment which sucks quite a lot as I'd rather be cheerful... Was so hyper on Friday afternoon/eve/Sat am that I think I must have burned out! Got prayed for yesterday evening to be filled with the Holy Spirit again especially in terms of my work/studying so I'm hoping I'm not going to be quite so fed up tomorrow morning... bit too shattered at the moment to feel anything different.

The conference was good - loved serving on the worship team! A shame that there weren't more people I knew there but after the intensity of the last few weeks of rehearsals and the weekend I know my band a lot better! One of my favourite parts of the weekend was lots of Morgan cuddles, he is so sweet and kept jumping into my arms and on my lap in the evening meetings when there was no kids work. I think I've got a new friend :-) It makes me want to have kids, though the baby bit I'm not looking forward too...

I love God!

I was thinking on my cycle home from church after Alpha this evening that even if I'm feeling crap and don't want to spend much time talking to God or anything like that, that he won't let me down.

The amount of conversations that I have woth people about him is actually quite encouraging to me. Talking to a new christian girl who picked my name out of the hat to pray for me has been praying all the time! She's loving it! It's fab to hear her say "yeah and another pppppps God..."!! I was able to say that I had finished my essay today like I'd aimed for and thought this afternoon I wasn't going to - another answer for her. I just pray that she continues in this way and bubbles on about it more and more - it's so encouraging to hear if you're going through a dry patch too.

We had 82 people sign up tonight for our Alpha course this term!

Braaaaap!!

ps got the Chase & Status album today - wicked.

smoking

There are times when I wish I smoked. Nem came home tonight and said that very thing - I completely agree. Tonight is not one of those times though. I'm feeling quite calm which is good for a change! But there are times when I really want to have a fag, even when I'm just sitting down not doing a lot, just something to distract my hands and to control my breathing. I said the other day to some of my course mates that I wished you could still smoke in the Grad Bar where we often go for lunch. Silly, but it was one of the things I liked about it! Not the nicest thing about lunch but the freedom was there to stay or go... Maybe a coffee and a cigarette would be quite nice, though I wouldn't want to have to go outside to indulge myself. Bring back smoking inside and I might consider having a fag or two when I'm stressed. But I won't be doing it for now, too many unspoken negative pressures, not to mention the health factors.

studying

Its working out to be a little more tricky and time consuming than I thought! I feel like I'm constantly hairing around from one place to the next to go to lectures, to buy books, to the library to get books out to try and read them in time before they're due back or I have something more pressing to read... Then there's the essay - the one that's looming over me. My first Masters level writing, not assessed but will determine whether I can actually write at this level, bit scary! What I've done so far I'm pleased with, it looks like something you might find in a book or journal with all the references in my 200 word introduction. But I have this evening, a couple of hours tomorrow, Weds all day before Alpha (which I'm going to be nervous about - have invited Will who I've met through Street Pastors) and then need to print it off to read through at the weekend I'm spending at Pontins near Lowestoft.

Time is running out so I better get to the library!

my bed

Something that is very important to me is my bed.
I love my bed. It is the place I go when I'm tired from dancing, after talking to people on the streets, when I'm cold, when I'm grumpy, when I get home from work to watch neighbours online and where I wish I could cuddle up to someone special. That will happen one day, and that will be the day I don't have to heat up my wheatbag (that's now lost its lavender smell from overuse) unless I've got period pain. Which I have today, reminding me how much I also like my mooncup. That's an invention that makes me feel more like a hippy than anything else!!

So I'm gonna settle down in my bed about now, read some more of Stuart and drink my ovaltine before sleeping (hopefully) and waking ready for the week ahead...

today

so i thought i'd try this blogging malarky...
talking to Ed today made me actually bite the bullet after thinking about it for an age!
so here i am - all exposed on tinternet!

I'm reading this book at the moment, originally it was for research for an assignment but as it's a biography it's sucked me in and I can't put it down.
Check it out http://www.amazon.co.uk/Stuart-Life-Backwards-Alexander-Masters/dp/0007200374/ref=pd_sim_b_1
The life story of a guy who'd been homeless, drug addicted, in prison, and how he turned around - gripping stuff as his story is told backwards towards the events in his childhood that caused the spiral to begin. I'm gonna get back to reading it...

Note to self - gonna recap on my html and get that with a pic to do the link - much more professional!