smoking

There are times when I wish I smoked. Nem came home tonight and said that very thing - I completely agree. Tonight is not one of those times though. I'm feeling quite calm which is good for a change! But there are times when I really want to have a fag, even when I'm just sitting down not doing a lot, just something to distract my hands and to control my breathing. I said the other day to some of my course mates that I wished you could still smoke in the Grad Bar where we often go for lunch. Silly, but it was one of the things I liked about it! Not the nicest thing about lunch but the freedom was there to stay or go... Maybe a coffee and a cigarette would be quite nice, though I wouldn't want to have to go outside to indulge myself. Bring back smoking inside and I might consider having a fag or two when I'm stressed. But I won't be doing it for now, too many unspoken negative pressures, not to mention the health factors.